Placenta Praevia

Last few days were the most tiring days of my life. I had to “manage” our house alone because my wife was not with me. She was in the observation ward due to the occurrence of placenta praevia in her pregnancy. What is placenta praevia? Placenta praevia (placenta previa AE) is an obstetric complication in which the placenta is attached to the uterine wall close to or covering the cervix. It can sometimes occur in the later part of the first trimester, but usually during the second or third. It is a leading cause of antepartum haemorrhage (vaginal bleeding). It affects approximately 0.5% of all labours.
The treatment? Caesarean delivery. But I still hope that my wife can has normal delivery. Let us pray for that.

lelaki or perempuan?

"A baby girl...

one of the most beautiful miracles in life,

one of the greatest joys we can ever know,

and one of the reasons why

there is a little extra sunshine,

laughter and happiness

in your world today.."

This afternoon, we went to see the doctor for routine check-up. then, my wife decided to ask the doctor to scan our baby's sex.

"Lelaki ke perempuan?" i asked that question to myself.

"Lelaki ke perempuan, doc?" my wife asked the doctor.

"Sekejap, ye. Tengok tu, muka dia..comel..hidung mancung" said the doctor

"Oh..come on, doc. That's my baby. Memang la comel sebab aku kan handsome. masa aku kecik dulu pun comel jugak. Just scan and look for it's @#!*. I want to know..boy or girl" the sweeping generalisation only playing in mind. I have to behave! :) i looked at the doctor's face and gave her a smile.

"Lelaki ke perempuan?"

"Sekejap. ye..hmm, see that? it's a girl"

yeah, it's a girl..my sweet baby girl!! The Almighty has answered my prayers..Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..

aku?

"bila sampai
detik waktuku
aku mahu tak seorang pun merayu
tidak juga kau
dengan tangis dan sendu

aku inikan binatang sundal
dari marga terbuang
biar apa pun yang menembusi kulitku
atau sayatkan luka baru di atas luka lama
aku akan terus begini
di sini

luka dan pedih
akan ku bawa menari
berlari
hingga hilang pedih
dan segala ngeri

kerana aku ingin hidup seribu tahun lagi
tanpa peduli
tanpa prejudis"

..i don't know why, because, lately i've been drowned by myself..in the ocean of my thought..