Thursday, March 19, 2009

it is complete now..

"WOH CEMEDAK NANG JOBO PAGER;
JIKOK GANTAR TOLONG SONGGROKKEA;
ENYONG BOCAH ENTES BELAJAR;

NEK SALAH TOLONG TODOHKEA."

this is my first attempt to involve myself in the atmosphere of Javanese Literature. trying to comprehend and appreciate the beauty of Javanese Language ; one way or another, is looking at the beauty of the Javanese ladies. there are so many secret behind it. there are so many hidden history and connection between Malay and Javanese. if the legend of Puteri Gunung Ledang is for real,i think i have completed the love story because my wife is a Javanese!(the Princes Raden Adjeng Retno Dumilah was from Java and Hang Tuah was from Malacca)

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Root, baby..root.


it's kind of weird when i have to say things by not using my mouth. i don't know..ahh, susah la menulis menggunakan bahasa penjajah ni..well, i still have to use it since not all people can understand my mother tongue..hmm, life is like a merry-go-round. turn and turn..then back where you begin. betul..sejauh mana aku 'berpusing', berjalan atau berlari, akhirnya aku kembali ke tempat dimana mula-mula aku berada..that's it..i'm back to my home..macam yang bonda selalu sebut, "sejauh mana belut berenang, akhirnya pulang ke lumpur jua. setinggi mana bangau terbang, akhirnya hinggap di belakang kerbau jua." dulu aku tak faham kenapa bonda sebut kata-kata ni, but now i can see the meaning. whoever we are, wherever we go, we must stick to our root. bagi aku, rumahlah 'root' aku. di rumah, banyak yang aku belajar. belajar menjadi anak, belajar menjadi abang, belajar menjadi suami, belajar menjadi ayah..belajar menjadi MANUSIA. aku belajar mengheret dada, aku belajar merangkak, aku belajar bertatih dan berjalan, kemudian aku belajar bertutur dan berlari..semuanya aku belajar dari rumah. rumah yang penuh dengan kasih sayang dari bonda dan ayahanda. sesekali bila aku pulang ke rumah bonda, ada rasa sayu yang bertapak di hati. sukar untuk aku fahami. sesekali juga, bila aku tatap wajah isteriku dan memandang jauh ke dalam kolam matanya, aku mengerti bahawa hidup tak semudah yang kita janjikan..dan itu pun aku belajar dari rumah. So, my friends, why don't you go home today..give your parent a warm lovely hug..and try to recall all the things that you used to have at home when you were a kid. it is nice thing to do..dan esok kau akan menjadi lebih dewasa.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Anak


Semasa engkau dilahirkan
Kau pun sudah satu impian
Impian nyata kurnia Illahi

Engkau anak istimewa
Kebahagian ibu ayah
Bila menangis dan juga tertawa

Hai anak kau tak mengerti
Betapa mulia pengorbanan mereka
Memberikan kasih-sayang
Agar dapat menikmati dunia



- i would like to recite this piece to my baby when my baby knows how to understand and appreciate the beauty of language. During my years in college, some of my colleagues address me as 'THE LAUREATE' just because i really love to 'stare' at the beauty of the language and hear the 'echo' of its enlightment, but the fact is - i'm not a good writer!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

sarat seorang suri

"...sanggulmu yang senget
menyimpan rahsia akal seorang suri
batikmu yang lusuh
melakar garis pengertian
sebuah pengorbanan
dan sarat seorang suri
hanya tersimpan di dalam hati
sarat seorang suri
dibahumu suami

santan yang engkau perahkan
dalam kari kasih sayang
dalam hidangan kebahagiaan
menyirat rahsia
sarat seorang suri

suriku di dadaku
kau helakanlah
segala sarat dalam nafas hari-harimu
selagi hari dan nadi berkejaran disisi kita
luka dan suka bergetaran bersamanya
aku lah sang suami.."



- it has been 5 month, meaning, my wife is in her second trimester of her pregnancy. last week, we went for monthly check-up and the doctor said that our baby is healthy. hmm..."cepatlah besar, anakku sayang..sihatlah selalu, anakku sayang.."

Monday, January 05, 2009

if you know it..

All the "tic tac toes" and "nick nack paddywack" of our life kept me busy and for sure, there is no time for sitting and writing. After all, there is no access to internet in my area (not my fault). Only today i manage to slip into my school access center and "re-connect" myself to the cyber world. While browsing this and that, i become interested with this topic - PARENTING. You know why? My wife is pregnant!! She is in the first trimester of her pregnancy. Dude, i'm going to be a father soon!!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

We share our “rizki” with a stray cat.

It has been 10 days we have been fasting. Some say that this fasting month – Ramadan – is a month of ‘rizki’. From certain point, it is true indeed. The Muslim will share foods for ‘berbuka’ among the brethrens. The brotherhood will be strengthened. Together, we manifest our gratefulness by performing the tarawikh in jamaah. And sometimes, some of us will provide meals after the tarawikh which we known as ‘moreh’ . Again we share the ‘rizki’.
As for my wife and I, we share our “rizki” with a stray cat! We live in a government’s quarters located near to a ‘kampung’ area. I believed that the cat is from that ‘kampung’ area. I’ve noticed this cat since the first week we move here. Actually, there are lot of stray cats in this neighbourhood, but this particular cat caught our attention and only Allah knows why. My wife and I have decided to call this cat as Little Sing (pronounce as ‘seng’). Since past few days, we share our foods with this cat because it always sitting in front of our main door as if it is waiting for the leftover from our ‘berbuka’ (break the fast). As a human who hold the principle and belief of Islam, I truly believed that our deeds will be reimbursed by Allah s.w.t.

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Queen of my Heart


"...tiada kata secantik bahasa untuk ku gambarkan mu, adinda.."